She mentioned her mom is having a hard time dealing with the news but her fiancé's family is really supportive. Immediately I sided with her mom — it's too quick and they're too young and blah blah. I then saw another young friend's engagement on Facebook to someone it seems like she barely knows. I've dated people for years and feel like I can barely let them borrow a movie without worrying slightly about never seeing them/it again. Granted, I've historically dated horrible people but seriously, how do you decide in under like 20 years you can spend your whole life with someone?
Mostly when these posts are made I feel bitter. Really, really bitter. And that's too bad! Why should I be jealous of something that I know, deep down, I may never really want or need. I've thought a lot about being married and I don't know if the whole thing is for me. The idea is nice, spending the rest of your life with someone, but in reality I don't know if it's something I can sustain.
When photos of diamond rings and smiles and roses are thrown in my face on the internet it's hard to sit back and rationalize and think about what I really want. It's easy to be jealous and sad and mad at the same time when faced with princess cut rings and puppies and joy.
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| me! from amazing photo shoot with Katy of Katheryn Moran Photography |
